I just can’t believe it has been two weeks today since my life altering surgery to remove the C. Diff infection in my large intestines. Here I am, sitting in the comfort of my living room surrounded by family. I am so so grateful for the tender mercies of the Lord. My sister Krystal posted this on Facebook a short time ago:
Two weeks ago today, my life changed. While we are so thankful for the outcome, I’ll never forget the dark moments we shared as a family. I’ll also never forget God’s gift to me, as he taught me a few lessons.
1. God has a plan and purpose for each one of us. It’s not always so clear to see, but if we stay close to the Lord, it’s easier to feel when we are doing what we need to be doing.
2. When the Lord needs you, he asks for your help – in that moment. Not tomorrow, not yesterday, and not in 10 minutes, but now.
3. The Lord prepares us. I did not know the gravity of Nate’s situation when I landed in Utah, but I know that the months, weeks, days, and hours leading up to that day, the Lord was paving the way for me to be there when I needed to be and also prepared me for what I needed to do.
4. We are stronger than we know. Nate is a true example of this, and a testimony to me that with God’s help, nothing is impossible.
I’m so thankful for a Heavenly Father who heard our prayers and blessed us in more ways than just saving Nate two weeks ago.
While I don’t ever want to relive a moment like that again, I pray that I will always be ready to answer the call to bear another’s burden- no matter what the outcome.
I love her ending comment here. “Always be ready to answer the call to bear another’s burden.” I think back to that dark moment, and can’t help but immediately feel the presence of my Savior. It was dark, and I didn’t know if I would make it out alive, but I knew the Savior was near watching over me. My family was close and I knew they were praying for me. I came out triumphant because of the strength of faith of all of you in my behalf. Thank you.
Today, I was able to work for about 45 minutes. That helped me some to feel needed again. I am still so weak. It’s really hard for me, as those that know me, know I usually only have one speed and that is full throttle. Where now I just putt around, and only have strength to goto the restroom and back to my chair. I get tired so easily, and I just have no real appetite. So, it’s hard to eat, but I am trying to eat, and hope that will help with my energy levels. The Drs told me it would be a month or two before I will start to feel more normal. Recovery from such an ordeal is hard. Almost harder than going through it in the first place, because like life, it’s slow, and requires patience. And that is hard. After this recovery then I will start Chemo to rid my body of the cancer still around my lungs. I meet with my Oncologist on Monday to discuss when it makes sense to start. I am nervous for that also.
So, it’s all just raw emotion still for me. Last night I woke up at about 3am, and couldn’t fall sleep. So, I did what any sensible human does during these circumstances… I pulled my phone out and read my entire Cancer blog. Every post and every comment again. It brought tears to my eyes as I re-read and read all the comments and well-wishes from friends and family all over the world. It was inspiring, and I am SO glad to have this record to reflect back on. It brought peace to my soul. It took me a while to fall asleep after that. But eventually I did. Today I got a few naps in, and grazed most of the day. I shaved my face after 2 weeks and took a shower, which really tired me out, but felt so good. I am happy to be where I am in my progress, and continue to rely on prayers and my Savior to pull me through the slow rough recovery ahead. I love you all.