As we wait for the recording of Nate’s funeral which should be here in a week or 2 and which I will post here when it comes. I am journaling my feelings of the last week of Nate’s life. Today marks 3 weeks since his passing. As I look at the pictures and realize what I know now that I didn’t know then, I wonder if I would have been more conscious of every moment and more appreciative of time together?
My thoughts of mortality have deepened and my trust in the Lord is my lifeline right now because I do not understand why Nate had to die other than I do know it was heaven’s will.
I have the blessing of no regrets. No regrets on time spent. Nate and I had hundreds of sacred hours together as I was by his bed side and tried to lighten his burdens of cancer he was called to bare. No regrets in should we have done more. Nate tried every possible option to prolong his life and be with his family. We have no, should have, could have, wished we had. What a tremendous blessing of comfort that is to us, his family now.
YES we miss him and forever will😢 I am so grateful for each one of you. The cards, texts, prays and support you have showered us with during this trial has lifted and sustained us. You have been the Lord’s hands, our earth angels and the fulfillment of the scripture.
Matthew 5: 4 Blessed are they that mourn: for they shall be comforted.
Thank you, Thank you, Thank you💝. I am trying to recognize or create a Dose of Joy each day for I know that is what Nate would want us to do. To find the good, the positive, the hope. To Look Up, Reach Out and Press Forward. Forward with Love, Hope and Faith. Thank you Son for setting the example♥️ Love always Mom